I'm back. I can't believe I haven't posted in so many months.
The plan was to stick with it. The plan was to follow through. The plan was to write every day and eventually write a book. Because writers write, right?

I think I am afraid. On one hand I believe that I am supposed to write books, and I have such a desire to do so. On the other hand I seem to avoid the task by any means. I think I am afraid of failure.

I see so many inspirational quotes about overcoming fear, and failing being a good thing etc, etc. I get all pumped when I see them and promise myself that I will print them out and put them on my inspirational board, which I have also failed to create. And then, nothing. There's always something else to be done. Always some other time sucking activity that I choose to do instead.

When am I going to get it right? When am I going to take that leap?

I don't want anything drastic to have to happen before I get motivated. I just want to practice obedience and do it. I simply need to start, have faith, be obedient, and just do it for goodness sake!
I know that on the other side of obedience are blessings for both me and others. I know that in fulfilling my purpose, someone else's life will be made better in some way. I know that I have been blessed through other people's obedience and that it is not right for me to deprive others of what God may have for them.

So my prayer today is that I will submit myself completely to God's will, so that I can be used as a vessel to bring light and life to others. In Jesus' name. Amen.